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in my goth necromancer era (wei wuxian | 魏无羡) ([personal profile] dieva) wrote2025-12-30 10:24 am
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[personal profile] shangba 2026-01-25 01:00 pm (UTC)(link)
( ...Jiang Cheng. Jiang Wanyin. This fool, this beautiful fool, ever ready to sacrifice for his brother, for both his siblings. For a family that never treated him justly, led by a matriarch that wished him burned off the register.

Lan Wangji's mouth hangs stiff, open. He wants to speak his objections. Wants to scream.

Startles himself, instead, when wet dances heavy down his cheeks, and he's only a burst if parting energy, driven forward to clutch the sides of Wei Ying's collars, to bring their mouths together, clumsy. A kiss born not of ardor, but the base animal need to comfort in the only way in which a man bereft of the right words ever can.

He loves him, strong. Loves Wei Ying, lessened. His heart breaks. )
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[personal profile] shangba 2026-01-25 04:39 pm (UTC)(link)
( For a time, silent. Resolutely mute, brought together by the sickness of their dependency, without beginning or end. Percolating. They kiss, touch, sweep away tears. Lan Wangji's head drifts tentatively, until their foreheads connect, and they may breathe together, anchored.

This man. This man hurts, this man grieves, yet Lan Wangji clings to him as if to a fixture, adding to his troubles. His man. Oh, Wei Ying. Wei Ying. )


You have hurt so much, so long. ( Alone, bearing the aches of amputation, of doubt, of the cultivation world's injustice and offences — and the burden of his secrets. )
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[personal profile] shangba 2026-01-25 05:50 pm (UTC)(link)
( Three years. Three years of Lan Wangji sitting, hesitantly, among the ranks of those who questioned Wei Ying's devotion to orthodoxy. Three years of solitude, of estrangement. Three years of pain come — and never gone.

He does not secure permission first. By right, he should. Yet his hand flows down on Wei Ying's front, sitting where his core should sleep, first with questioning fingertips, then the flat of his palm. Nothing. Not now, nor ever forthcoming.

A shudder seizes him, and he aches once again. Aches without cure or resolution. His eyes shutter, and he pulls his touch away. )


You will never hurt again. I pledge.
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[personal profile] shangba 2026-01-25 07:06 pm (UTC)(link)
( A difficult promise, nigh impossible. He knows. Knows too that Wei Ying is correct to name his limitations. Yet still, it needles and bleeds him to consider that, for all his efforts — the world may prove indifferent. Wei Ying might deem he has not tried enough.

No matter. For now, his arms come and round and enclose to surround Wei Ying. He pulls his husband to himself, nudges him nigh on Lan Wangji's own lap. If he is near Wangji's thrumming, churning, furnace of a core, he need not be cold.

No, he need never be cold again. No assisted. )


Let this be my worry.
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[personal profile] shangba 2026-01-26 12:48 pm (UTC)(link)
( Dangerous, and only more so now that Wei Ying has formally defected. Without the custody of a clan, his powers are rogue, wanton, desires. He is... a liability the sects can afford to claim requires neutralisation. Something they can thieve and wrest from each other's hands.

And he is so beautiful, Lan Wangji supposes. So frail, so lost in Lan Wangji's arms now, as he's brought close in an embrace that reassures him, more than Wei Ying, of the Yiling Patriarch's ultimate whereabouts.

Here, alive. Here, safe. )


I am your sword. I am your shield. I am your stair step.
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[personal profile] shangba 2026-01-26 04:48 pm (UTC)(link)
( His husband, an equal. His husband, a creature of unusual habits. His husband, a wraith. His husband, his husband, his husband.

In the end, another inevitability: Wei Ying speaks his own pledges, and Lan Wangji shames himself, attention unfairly divided to sit on Wei Ying's mouth, its plush contours, its plumpness and shine.

It isn't, he suspects, ardor. Not desire in the base, animalistic sense. Only a quiet, ill satisfied need, to know and contain every part of another person. He dips in again, and this time the kiss is fleeting, admirably restrained. And again, and once more after. )


Zewu-Jun must know. ( Now, more than before, when it was a matter of whim and privilege. Wei Ying needs Lan Wangji's protection. )
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[personal profile] shangba 2026-01-26 05:39 pm (UTC)(link)
He needn't know of your core.

( Firm, perhaps in ways he should reconsidered. Zewu-Jun has shown him nothing but kindness, nothing but consideration. If Lan Wangji were to present him with the truth — ...but in truth, he cannot.

They know, they both know, the strange, nebulous colors of his possessiveness. That Wei Ying has gifted him a truth his mere hands cannot hope to contain, and that he will guard it, and Wei Ying's privacy, jealously.

He shakes his head in silent, strained degrees. And still keeping Wei Ying close, as if a trinket of happiness, his plaything — )


Only of the marriage. To protect you as our own.
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[personal profile] shangba 2026-01-26 06:12 pm (UTC)(link)
A political necessity.

( After all, Lan Wangji cannot plead for the unaffiliated defector of another sect. But he can intercede for his spouse.

And so he must, humbling himself, knees and floor to ground, and his pride battered and his privileges forgotten. He will go before his brother to ask as he never has, as he never should.

Holding nothing back. )


This evening. ( This cannot wait until tomorrow. ) Forgive me. Eat with Yuan alone. Shall dine with brother.
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[personal profile] shangba 2026-01-26 07:46 pm (UTC)(link)
Inevitably.

( If his prediction holds, he will be withheld first for explanations before his sect leader, then, unworthily, to bring his matter before the elders of the sect whole, called to an emergency conclave. But Wei Ying need not concern himself with Lan Wangji's private humiliation.

It happens, or it doesn't. He weathers it, or he doesn't. Either way, Wei Ying's cause must and will prevail. Too many lives depend on it.

And so, cautiously but resolutely, he releases Wei Ying. )


You recall the path. Go collect him.
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[personal profile] shangba 2026-01-27 11:07 pm (UTC)(link)
( Together, as a family. How it breaks him to think that he has now two vulnerable dependents in his care, that he may never rely on Wei Ying for his own resilience. That this man, whom he kisses again, impassively, will age the quicker, the uglier, alone.

That even in the best of worlds, Lan Wangji will mourn his passing. He shudders, and it is cruel. Shudders, and it is ache. Shudders, and it is unthinkable.

Then, with utmost care, as Wei Ying stands first, he withdraws into himself, remembering the expectations cast upon Lan Wangji of Gusu Lan, how he must show, at long last, strength. )


Let it be done.

( And just so, hesitantly but bolstered, he raises himself to seek out his brother's counsel. )
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[personal profile] shangba 2026-01-28 08:56 am (UTC)(link)
( The night stretches.

First, the talk with Zewu-Jun, murmured, sedate. Hix brother's agony to hear Lan Wangji has breached every etiquette and succumbed Cloud Recesses in a diplomatic quagmire. His gladness after, that Hanguang-Jun has met contentment.

Then his uncle, the same tale, reception gelid but firm. It is a choice made, and it will be honoured, and the unorthodox Wei Wuxian will receive what respect the sect can spare him. Then, their elders, faces wan, drawn, guarded.

At several points, Lan Wangji is dismissed, then called again for questions. More often than not, the words are the same. He does not lose patience. He does not begrudge.

Not until midnight has long fled, and he is sent to his quarters. There, dim candle light, gentle warmth. His two charges, sleeping.

He shames himself, barely sparing the time to silently pass water over his body, before slipping into sleeping silks and retiring on the lesser bed, prepared for Yuan. A bad fit, but inevitable.

Come morning, he wakes first, body startled by habit. He hushes the child, himself already awake, and calls him for ablutions. By the time of Wei Ying's own stirring, they wait at the low table, breakfast long brought and Lan Wangji taking his tea. )


Good morning.
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[personal profile] shangba 2026-01-28 06:17 pm (UTC)(link)
Late.

( Late, if somewhat productive, his mouth curled in an unbothered line. There are words to speak, all discouraging. He cannot serve Wei Ying his doubts. Instead, he answers the affection with a squeeze of Wei Ying's arm, with the tip of his head.

His mouth chases the ghost of Wei Ying's warmth, missing his cheek. Ah. So be it.

Yuan, at least, is thoroughly satisfied, laughing at the onslaught of affection. Lan Wangji shifts to allow them their easy exchange, turning instead to devote himself to filling out three of the unused, clinking bowls, to excess with the breakfast offering. )


Brother and the elders convene today among themselves.

( Best they do not trouble themselves with the conclusion. )
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[personal profile] shangba 2026-01-28 08:13 pm (UTC)(link)
( Unknowingly, Yuan — who, despite the tumultuous nature of his upbringing, still finds the manners to look up questioningly at Lan Wangji before picking out the finer crisp vegetables from his bowl — acts as a shield between them. It is an art not to wage a war of anxieties, between two men grown.

Lan Wangji finds both of their protests and questions silent, suspended. Their war unwaged, their mouths sweet and tame. Here, inevitably, they must act at their finest, and so he briefly diverts himself with the child, teaching him, also, to fill out Wei Ying's bowls. Duly attended. )


Eat with us. ( In truth, by now, Wei Ying will be eating either alone or with the rare companionship of Yuan, who picks away at the dregs of what's gone untouched of Lan Wangji's portion. ) Yuan wishes to see his infant disciple friends.

( To think, brought here to vacation with his caretaker, and he abandons Wei Ying shamelessly for the nursery. )

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