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in my goth necromancer era (wei wuxian | 魏无羡) ([personal profile] dieva) wrote2025-12-30 10:24 am
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[personal profile] shangba 2026-01-31 06:39 pm (UTC)(link)
( Ink, paper. More butterflies, same as the one gently requesting an escort for young master Yuan. The caretaker himself flies over, undaunted by the light powdering of snow dripping down outside, unwilling to surrender a child to the trek.

He introduces them again, Yuan and his one-day teacher, all pleasantries duly exchanged before the two excuse themselves. The caretaker, perhaps less enthusiastic than his charge, who hops and gasps and points and falls in awe at everything. Anything at all.

And so, left behind, watching them from the window as they disappear into a singular blitzing point in the horizon, Lan Wangji assesses his would-be husband once more. )


You are well?
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[personal profile] shangba 2026-02-01 02:01 pm (UTC)(link)
He requires playmates.

( Even Lan Wangji, for all his solitude, once entertained children of his age. It was only later, with grudging and educated maturity, and grief, that he surrendered companionship.

At least it appears as if Wei Ying is happy to toil away at his scrolls, as well entertained as a child. Lan Wangji laughs, nods, and amuses himself by offering out either fresh parchment or a different brush, only to watch Wei Ying wade through his chaos. )


He would be happy here.
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[personal profile] shangba 2026-02-01 10:42 pm (UTC)(link)
( Ah, Wei Ying will stain the parchment.

Then the table, the floor, perhaps the world whole. And it will not matter. Drip-drip-drip and the contagion of his ink spreads, and Lan Wangji can only stare, still impossibly charmed.

Long may he be spared a world where this man is no longer the epicenter. He could not bear it. He must not think of it. )


Let him stay, come what may.
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[personal profile] shangba 2026-02-02 09:38 am (UTC)(link)
( Can he? In truth, for all his willingness, Lan Wangji suspects even Wei Ying would struggle to relinquish this child, his child. Cutting off company is not unlike severing a limb, and Wei Ying has long bled now.

But Yuan would sooner thrive here than in a wasteland of starvation, perpetually threatened. He knows so. They both know so. And so, he nods. )


It would be to his benefit. ( And, truly, Lan Wangji would be nothing to no one, if he cannot make such arrangements. ) Though he will have to shed his name.
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[personal profile] shangba 2026-02-02 01:12 pm (UTC)(link)
( If he adopts Wen Yuan. Certainly, his blood family should have the final say, for all he suspects asking people succumbed into destitution is at best dishonest, and at worst manipulative. They will want the very best for their offspring. That is Wei Ying, that is Gusu Lan.

But Lan Wangji cannot find the words to speak so. He nods, barely perceptibly, and he turns the flat of his hand to squeeze Wei Ying's with sudden, strange enthusiasm. A pretty plan. Not fine, not fair, but pretty. )


Do it. ( Wei Ying, his beloved. Wei Ying, Wei Ying, Wei Ying. ) If... the elders refuse the Wen. You will not come?

( Without them, he needn't say — and knows the answer, already. Hastens to mitigate it: )

Now and then. To visit.
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[personal profile] shangba 2026-02-02 05:58 pm (UTC)(link)
( As long as you're my husband and he's my son.

As long as the sun rises in the east and sets westward. As long as Lan Wangji's hand, tremulous and artless at first, wades over the warm stretch of Wei Ying's forehead, when he assumes his position over Hanguang-Jun's lap.

One stroke, tender. The second, more measured. He has hardly learned affection, never perfected it; but he will not disappoint here and now, this only man who matters. His fingers are too callused for this, too harsh, too biting.

He breathes in and out, and he allows himself these scant, trickling seconds of enjoyment. )


Then, I ask no more of you.
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[personal profile] shangba 2026-02-02 09:02 pm (UTC)(link)
( When did his feelings start? He feels, at time, as if he was born with an ache of longing in his hollowed chest, and it only pivoted its source. From his mother, to Wei Ying, the hurt continuous.

He cannot riddle the specifics. Cannot begin to think of himself as a transparent, knowable thing, when so often he is accused of opacity. In Wei Ying's hair, his fingers tangle, linger. )


...don't remember. ( A truth, however foolish. ) Perhaps a few months gone. A lifetime. I do not recall their absence.

( A love so powerful, so corrosive, it consumed his world. )
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[personal profile] shangba 2026-02-03 09:38 am (UTC)(link)
We do it now, under your duress.

( He murmurs it, as if it may be forgotten, yet the truth hangs: Wei Ying concedes to him, has wilted on his lap and is accepting of his attention, because he has no contender. No alternative.

The truth of his willingness is a different beast. Boredom, force and convenience have shaped his cordiality. Long-term interest, too, if the safety of either Yuan specifically or the Wen more generally can be secured.

And despite it all, Lan Wangji cannot fault him. Wei Ying has suffered far too long, to be begrudged any slyness, any weakness of character that might direct him to submit to his husband for his own gain. Let him have it. Let him have everything.

He strokes Wei Ying's hair and his forehead, and he cups his jaw, and he is content. )


We have the time.
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[personal profile] shangba 2026-02-03 05:42 pm (UTC)(link)
( The baby. The babies. Not unexpectedly, and to Wei Ying's probable satisfaction, he flushes unseemingly, reduced to the worst of his juvenile sensitivity, his consummate shyness.

His hand stills, paralyzed in place by audacity alone. How dare he. Truly. Doesn't this Yunmeng wretch know he speaks to — ...his husband. In truth, he has the right. )


How will you make more children?
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[personal profile] shangba 2026-02-04 09:47 am (UTC)(link)
( Naughty. As if he knows how, as if it might ever be permitted. He knows, they both know, they have ever been different creatures, frailed by their breeding. Lan Wangji's has never prioritized worldly, carnal pleasures.

And so he finds himself... lacking. A likely discouraging prospect, his failure as a groom. Had they enjoyed a proper matchmaking, Wei Ying's representatives might have called Lan Wangji's qualifications in bedplay under question.

But they have never enjoyed such scrutiny over their suitability. He must acknowledge it now, flushing, gaze descended, fingers straying away from Wei Ying to fold gently at his sides. )


It... is not a requirement. For me. ( He will not force his wants on Wei Ying, certainly not while also lacking skill. If Wei Ying only wishes them to be as friends, it can be permitted. )
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[personal profile] shangba 2026-02-04 06:50 pm (UTC)(link)
Too much, too soon.

( A simple conclusion. He wants Wei Ying, desires him. Has certainly aligned himself with the possibility of consummation, should their roles ever progress to equality. But now, when he holds Wei Ying's freedom in his hand, his future and his fortunes?

It would be an unequal thing, entirely unfair, a burden. Likely, also, unwanted. He dares not. )


We have barrelled through courtship. ( Hardly undertaken the rites, barely performed a wedding. Even Lan Wangji must recognize they have been sorely lacking, for all his enthusiasm has removed his instinct to obey the forms. )
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[personal profile] shangba 2026-02-05 02:16 pm (UTC)(link)
( Let's. As if it's a simple thing, immediate. As if there is no forethought that might burden their enterprise or delay it, as if Lan Wangji needn't —

...think. He must think. Surely, surely. He must plan, make this worthwhile, enticing, a spectacle. He watches his hand, captive in Wei Ying's, and tugs on sheer instinct of introducing distance between them, of shielding his inadequacy.

There is a pause, a moment of recalibration. Then, he recites: )


Since I finally see the young man, how can I be not happy? ( A tender proposition. )

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